A Personal Journey Towards Inner Peace
Three years ago, I would never have described myself as someone who practises guided meditation and Reiki. I was someone who kept moving: managing the household, meeting work deadlines, attending hospital appointments, and holding everything together without letting the cracks show.
I had been on a fertility journey for three years. Every month brought a new cycle of treatments, a new round of hope and a new wave of uncertainty. I kept telling myself I was managing, and rarely spoke openly about what I was carrying emotionally.
I had been so focused on my physical health that I had almost stopped paying attention to my emotional wellbeing. When I finally recognised that, it became the starting point of a very different kind of journey.
When Everyday Life Started Feeling Overwhelming
There is a particular kind of exhaustion that does not show up on any medical report. It is the slow, quiet erosion of yourself that happens when you spend months, sometimes years, navigating uncertainty without processing what you are going through.
I began noticing changes I could no longer ignore:
- 1.I became far more irritated by small, everyday things
- 2.Ordinary situations started feeling disproportionately overwhelming
- 3.I found it increasingly difficult to manage my emotional responses
- 4.I lost the sense of steadiness I had always considered part of who I was
That was the moment I understood something clearly: looking after my physical health was necessary, but my emotional wellbeing needed the same care and attention.
Finding a Different Approach to Wellbeing
A close friend introduced me to Aannchal Jain Garg, founder of Mihika Sugandham, a practitioner whose healing approach includes Reiki and guided meditation.
Initially, I was unsure what to expect. My understanding of wellbeing had always been shaped by medical consultations, prescribed treatments and clinical outcomes. Reiki and meditation were unfamiliar territory.
Why I Decided to Try Something New
I was not looking for a dramatic transformation or an overnight shift. I wanted something simpler: a space to slow down, understand my emotions more clearly and reconnect with the part of myself I had gradually lost touch with.
So I approached it with as open a mind as I could manage. That quiet, uncertain decision turned out to be one of the most meaningful choices I made in those three years.
My Experience with Guided Meditation and Reiki
My experience developed gradually across several weeks. Each session gave me a chance to step away from everyday noise and direct my attention inward.
Guided meditation encouraged me to notice my breathing, become more present and observe my thoughts without immediately reacting. Reiki offered a complementary space focused on relaxation and quieter self-reflection.
| Stage | My Experience |
|---|---|
| Early Sessions | My mind was busy and restless. Sitting quietly felt unfamiliar, but I kept showing up. |
| After a Few Weeks | I felt more comfortable slowing down and focusing on my breath. |
| Over Time | I responded to situations with greater patience and less reactivity. |
| Personal Reflection | I started making space for my emotions and allowing myself time to rest. |
The Shifts I Did Not Expect
My sleep improved. I became less reactive in conversations that would once have unsettled me. I started approaching hospital appointments with less dread and more steadiness.
The journey was not about becoming a different person. It was about reconnecting with the person I had stopped making time for.
Understanding the Connection Between Mind and Body
One of the most meaningful things I learned is that emotional wellbeing deserves the same consistent attention as physical wellbeing.
Throughout my fertility journey, I kept following my doctors’ advice and medical treatments. Meditation and Reiki were entirely complementary: they offered emotional support rather than replacing the medical care I was receiving.
1. Making Space for Emotions
I learned I did not always need to appear composed. Acknowledging difficult emotions rather than pushing past them became a surprisingly effective part of looking after myself.
2. Allowing Myself to Pause
Slowing down felt counterintuitive at first. Meditation helped me understand that pausing is not avoidance; it is a form of care that lets you return to your responsibilities more steadily.
3. Responding With Greater Awareness
Instead of reacting immediately to every difficult situation, I began giving myself a moment to understand what I was actually feeling. That small shift made a meaningful difference.
Why Emotional Wellbeing Is Part of the Healing Process
I used to think of emotional health as something you addressed after everything else was sorted. This experience showed me it belongs at the centre of overall wellbeing, not at the edges.
What This Journey Taught Me
Personal wellbeing is not about waiting for every difficult situation to resolve itself. It is about choosing, even in uncertainty, to pay attention to yourself. Some things I carry with me now:
- ●It is okay to ask for emotional support when you need it
- ●Taking time for yourself is not indulgent; it is necessary
- ●You do not need to have everything figured out before you begin
- ●Small, consistent shifts matter more than dramatic overnight changes
- ●Personal wellbeing is a continuing journey, not a fixed destination
A Message for Anyone Going Through a Difficult Phase
If you are navigating fertility challenges, emotional exhaustion or a demanding phase of life, you may recognise how hard it can be to make time for yourself.
You do not need prior experience. You do not need to have tried everything else. You simply need the willingness to begin.
Complementary wellbeing practices like guided meditation and Reiki are available to those who are exhausted, uncertain, sceptical and overwhelmed, exactly as you are.
Start wherever you are, move at your own pace, and if it helps, find a guide who creates a space where you feel safe and supported.
A Journey of Reconnection
Three years of medical appointments taught me patience. Guided meditation and Reiki taught me something different: to look inward.
I cannot say every challenge disappeared. But I began approaching myself, my emotions and my everyday experiences with a different quality of awareness.
Healing is rarely one thing. It is rarely just medical, or just emotional, or just physical. Most often it is a combination, and the emotional dimension is not a secondary concern. It is an essential one.
Sometimes, taking care of yourself begins with something as simple as allowing yourself to pause.
And sometimes, that pause becomes the beginning of a much deeper journey.
